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Going to a movie with the enemy

August 31, 2002 - 5:37 PM

    I am so screwed.

    Half an hour ago, while I was innocently watching an E! True Hollywood Story, the phone rang. This in and of itself is not unusual. The caller, however, was not anyone I was expecting.

    Me: Hello?
    Unfamiliar Caller: Hi, may I speak to Brigid?
    Me: This is Brigid.
    Not-So-Unfamiliar Caller After All: Hi. It's Ophelia.
    Me: (startled) Oh. Hi.
    Ophelia: Buffy and I are going to see a movie tonight, and I wanted to know of you'd come.
    Me: (moving from startled to panicked) Uh, what movie?
    Ophelia: Triple X.
    Me: (against all rational thought) Um, okay.
    Ophelia: Great. It's at 7:30.
    Me: I'll be there.

    Then I hung up. And promptly began freaking out. Why did I do that? Why did I say yes? Oh my God. I vowed not to forgive her for what she did to Sonia. I was--am--so mad at her. I haven't called or e-mailed her for well over a month. I thought we both had an unspoken agreement that we're not friends anymore. At least I was aware of the agreement! Apparently she isn't. Dammit. Dammit. Dammit. If Sonia finds out about this, she's going to take it as a sign of betrayal. Dammit.

    I know what Freud would tell me. He'd tell me that I feel guilty. You see, I actually had a dream about Ophelia a couple nights ago. Ophelia was trying to talk to me, and I just pushed past her without acknowledging her words. All of a sudden our friend Leigh was there, demanding that I explain why I was treating Ophelia so badly. I tried to explain that what she did was unforgivable, that I'm sick of her. I don't remember Leigh's reaction. I only know that my subconscious feels guilty about dismissing Ophelia. It's pretty funny that my brain would send Leigh in as the Voice of Morality. She was always such a kleptomaniac and pothead. (Apparently she has cleaned up her act after joining the Air Force. Who knows?)

    Despite this, I'm still feeling physically ill. I don't like Ophelia. I don't like Buffy. I don't want to sit through Triple X again. Dammit.

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